my holiday has been unbelievably productive i guess so... except for the times when I am all alone.with.no.exact.intention.
helloooooo. I feel serious i sound serious... i am serious.
have I got my mind made up? Every so often I catch myself in that contracted state of responding from a place of fear, where i am barely breathing... that i find myself hemming and hawing about that. I just hate how sometimes i have a tendency to procrastinate or be indecisive.
a little bit quite a bit stressed, quite a bit confused, floundered. But i am definitely onto something.
there's this time(like finally duh), i went up to my mom and talked about the objective I want to achieve(this is just one of the objectives). In all my life i have never been so serious over a decision. Ya know that very intense feeling. Ahhhh!!!!
so all this while i have been seeking advice from people and... sigh.
the only thing that matters to me right now is my own effort and how hard i try.
I brace myself for the beautiful struggles that are soon to comeeeeeee! :S
I am rather excited tho.
